Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Friday, May 27, 2011

Fourteen weeks and four days

So it's been that long since I blog here. And within these many weeks, lots have happened.

I have (re)found my new hobby. I am pretty in love with photo taking still.. especially when just the past weekend taking some amazing lightening and effect photos at the camping... I think I still love it so much that I wanted to explore more...! Can't wait for upcoming trip to Israel to take some amazing photo.. with a upgraded body too! v^0^v

I have found some new friends of my boyfriend's. They are extremely warm hearted people. Each of them have such distinct personality but when all of them group together, it's such a dynamic group that shines! Thanks for including me and I love being with them.

Oh, I had just slipped my mouth and yea.. I have found new love. I literally got moved by him four days after valentine's day. Is this a valentine's day fever? If so, then this must be a very long fever, we are still going strong.. nothing much has differ our relationship yet. Let's see how it gets when 6 months hit eh? I love him very much tho, he is the most retard(ly funny, kind, lighthearted, easy-going, smart, cute) human being who has yet being in my love life.

Unfortunately I have still not yet found a way to be with my family better, these days have been a stress, I still have been silently having power struggle between me and grams. I don't know what to do with seniors. Maybe I need to be home more but what is there to do?

Anyhow. Summer is almost here. I can't believe :D Happy June!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Hey Guys

So what about dating someone now?

Sure, why not! But I realized it's hard to find compatible people nowadays... I feel like the older you get the more 'restrictions' you got, cos each of us are pretty much shaped at my age... and it's a weird feeling when you feel that there's this social gap around each one of us that keep us different from others... Once we fall into a certain 'groupies' we just sort of grew apart, isn't it?

It's not like we are young and playing in a sandbox where you don't give a damn who this person you playing with is anymore...

On the other hand, it's fun though, as always, meeting people is extremely fun for me and I love it!

Keep loving!

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Date or Friends?

I need a date.

You know why??

I feel like to have someone who can go to this OKgo concert with me.
Before this, I have this feeling sometime too. Like for example, someone who can go buy grocery with me, someone who can clean my room together (a maid?? :P), someone who can just walk with me in the park... etc etc.

I am lonely~!

Well anyway, so tonight, I thought I needed a date cos I have this awesome concert I really really really want to go...! hahaha. such a lame excuse. Maybe all I really need are more friends!!!

Or simply.. I need more love~

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Why be in a relationship that isn't really a relationship

It's coming back. I need sleep I guess. Not feeling right this week.
AND this stupid facebook update page is VERY annoying.

Hide hide hide.

Sorry people, I don't meant to hide you but I meant to hide something else!!

Maybe sometime soon I will quite facebook.

Why be in a relationship that isn't really a relationship?
Do we have to rely on facebook to stay update of each one of our friends now?
Are they even my friends if I have to do this.

I'm counting... I only hang out with 5 people now... I don't feel I have friends beside them.
haha.. good or bad? I have to stay positive and thing it's good...

Do friends need to hang out to stay close? Maybe.
Do lovers need to see each other to stay together? Maybe... more like Yes.

If we cannot see each other at all. there's really not much relationship there.
I don't believe in internet love, or phone love or long distance love.
If you are not good at expressing yourself, lazy talker, or you are insensitive to yours or other people's feelings, go find that girl/guy next door, it's better for you.

Anyway. how did I end up writing this. good night, I need to watch some curious george to cheer myself up. bye.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Just a random late Egyptian love poem:

I shall lie down in my house and pretend illness. Then my neighbours will come by to visit me and my beloved will come with them. She will send the physicians away. For she alone understands my illness.


If provided that the translation is correct (which I trust the historians who encode the Egyptian language...), Egyptians and people back then are no difference from us all in this world today - human nature seems to be unchanged even after thousands of years.

Poems are ageless...

how cool is this :)

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Forum

A random comment by a net friend:

"why u want importance? why u want apologizing ? thts not you, thats your ego, attitude, insecurity... hurt, hatred, convert all that to love...peace and harmony...... look as all are equal....u allowed someone to behave the way they behaved.... u were not aware...of your self, you needed help, the other person needs more help than you....you want to do it, and cant... the other person might not even know.... what he has to do .... love most to the peopl
e who hurt you.... love melts all blockages....."

Can love make everything possible? Can I really believe in the power of love? Can I really trust that God can makes the impossible possible? When there's nothing more I can do but forced to drop the whole darn business? I have nothing else I can do but to love it I guess!!!

I guess I have to. I am telling myself every moment now that I am loving, I'm calm, I'm happy. I have all the things I need in life, I really think so now, there's nothing more I need. I am not dying, I'm healthy. I'm not starving, I'm full. I'm not homeless, I have a home. There's no other better choice.... I am happy!! But how come I felt like I'm wearing this "mask" again?

Do I want to dwell in hate? Do I want to be unhappy? Do I want to be angry? I don't. But why is it so hard. What the hell is going on? I need food, I need exercise, I need jokes, I need internet, I need chocolates, I need books, I need friends, I need air, I need something more???. What the hell do I need now? What the hell do I want to do with myself now? I already have these things, where am I heading to?

I need God, He is with me already, right? I'm peaceful, I'm not going bizarrely angry. But what should I do next, my God? It would be nice if you can tell me. Haven't I changed already? I felt like it's been 4 years since winter...!! I felt like I am born again. Am I not good enough??? Why do I feel stuck again? How come I always wander away from You, my God? I need to catch up, but my burden is so heavy, I need to drop it, drop everything, NOW.

Probably I need to kill my ego, I need to kill my pride, I need to unstuck.. Can You tell me how to do this??? I hated that I have this esteem/insecurity, why do I still feel "hurt"? When really, I wasn't hurt, it was my insecurity that hurt.... I need some serious reflection, I want to just drop everything and stay by myself in some random forest or something... I cannot wait till this school done.. but I'm procrastinating!! Sigh... Why am I so weak :(

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Death is Hope

"Since Jesus has raised from the grave, the tomb and death are no longer a place without hope, where the story ends with a complete failure, where man touches his extreme limits of his powerlessness, from the day when Christ was raised, the cross, which seems to be the sign of abandon, of loneliness, of failure, becomes a new beginning. From the depth of death brings the promise of eternal life. Lord, let us carry our crosses with love, our daily crosses, in the certainty that they are illuminated by the radiance of Easter." - Pope Benedict XVI

Something my pastor said today in mass that touches me very much: Easter is about life, it's about joy. It's about hope after death, it's about hope in the hopelessness when everything seems to come to an end. When there are struggles and failures, we have to remember there's always hope and His great love from God. Christ is risen, truly He is risen! ^_^

HAPPY EASTER!!! ^0^

Thursday, April 1, 2010

Do you care?

A friend of a friend's story.

There was this roommate of his.
One day he got back to the dorm.
"Hey" he said.
"..." He is lying on bed sleeping he guessed.

So he just did his thing and after a while.
It gets very quiet.
He walked up to his bed, push him by his shoulder.
"..." No noise, he flipped him over.
Underneath the blanket, he has his hand laying on a pistol, then he noticed the bullet hold on his right forehead.

The note in the blood reads: "No one care anyway."



For many people, they cannot see who care about them.
No one show them any care. They get despair and hopeless.
If they only knew God cares.
If those around them only show them care.

I am telling myself to care to care everyone and anyone.
Before, I don't see anyone care about me, but now that I found Him.
I only need Him to care about me.
The rest of the people, I may or may not "careless"...

I still believe that I am a caring person, even though I am a stiff talker and stubborn "big woman".
I believe I can do everything through God, I only have to ask and He will give me the strength.
If no one is doing to me, I can do this to them.

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Re: Real Food for Thought: Coffee

I had been hateful again.

I told myself today. That to be loved meaning to love, I said it many times before. But I again got hateful again.. *slap myself*.. sigh.. this bring a question to my mind today: "Is unconditional love exist? Where do we find them?"

Anyway, unconditional love exist only in God. Saints are inspirational.. they are the "tools of God" reaching the point that their practice transmute God's love... Are Saints unconditional lovers? Yes, it's been told... And that brings Jesus pop into my head... He is God's Son, born as human. He loves, He forgives, He endures, everything, unconditionally. Does that mean human can actually be like God??

The Bible told us that human are created in the image of God... (But aren't we suppose to be humble and obey God, not trying to be God? I need to study more into this...)

God loves us unconditionally, I never love unconditionally, in fact, I might not even love before.. Will we be able to things unconditionally in a world like ours?? Is it possible? Can we all be Saints or Jesus? Can we really spread unconditional love start from ourselves?

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

I grew up no longer believe in these quizzes or whatever tests or horoscopes stuffs... (if you know me long enough you should know I used to read all these horoscope books and I know all about the characteristics of each horoscopes, which goes along with who, and etc, etc..)

It's been ages since I took any "personality test" stuffs, I want to believe this just for a short moment here, hahhahaahaha:



Result: Dream Girl
You've got it all -- affection, a cool head, a positive attitude, and all that other stuff that guys want their girlfriends to have.

You're light-hearted, fun, romantic and not too sleazy -- a great combination. When you start a relationship, there's a good chance the guy will totally fall for you, whether he intended to or not. Keep up the great attitude and you're sure to be a heartbreaker. (Please just try to be gentle.)




I want to be a positive girlfriend. I do. but why do I act so aggressive all the time. even talking a some people I know, I can be so harsh and rough... sigh..... -____-

Friday, March 12, 2010

Why hate TTC when you can love?

Do you dislike TTC?

These days, there had been this waves and waves of concerns and finger pointing at TTC from the general public. This had sadden me quite alot mostly of my sentimental feelings toward TTC.

I still remember how nice I think TTC service was when I first came to Canada more than a decade ago, compare to where I came from, the service of TTC was extremely well in my eyes, I was especially impressed about how nice their person to person attitude (some of which they still exist today) - how the bus driver would wait for you at the stop or even the intersection if they acknowledge you crossing the road and trying to catch the bus, how the driver would greet you when you get on the bus with a smile and a warm good morning how are you, how brighten and awaken I and everyone felt when the subway driver sing or announce the station stops in a uplifting way (it's amazing to see everyone on the train can smile at the same time), how on time the bus (mostly) be and you can go to the bus stop literally 2 mins before the scheduled time, how smooth some of the drivers drive (unfortunately not many of them are good now).

And more and more memories regarding people I met or help on the bus, while waiting at the bus stops, on the subways, etc etc... I love the fact that public transit can be such a unique community for all of us who commute to be part of it.

If these facts won't convince you to love TTC more, I had another.

Just the past Thursday night, during the start of the rush hour, I was to buy some tokens, "Can I have ten tokens please?" I asked this booth attendee like how I always do, but this night I added: "Are you okay?" Why did I ask him that? It was because he was wrapping tape and bandage between his right thumb and index finger. "You cut yourself?" I asked. He said to me "Yes" then he gave me a big smile, "Your so kind, thank you" and when he gave me the ten tokens, "Here you go" he told me "and don't put one in". I was so surprised (cos I would never expect to get a free TTC ride..? hahha) "Oh, are you sure?" I looked at him and asked, he then put his injured hand on his left chest and then said "yes, cos your so kind, thank you!" While he expressed his gratitude for my words by treating me, I too, expressed my gratefulness and thank him for it and told him "No, thank YOU, you take care alright? and have a good night". We exchange another smile and I waved goodbye to him and he did the same. And then I realized there were around 4 other people behind me waiting to buy some tokens. Oops I hope they didn't hear what was happening or record it! LOL.

If they did, maybe they would start to think, "See! TTC workers have work ethnic problems! They shouldn't let anyone go without paying!". Yes, he shouldn't treat me, and I should have pay (now that I think about it...) Anyway, all I want to say is, we are all human, we all want to be treated with dignity. I know if they hold the bus and buy a coffee, or if they sleep in the booth while working is not of good work ethnic, but I believe some, if not alot of us who work, don't work the whole 7 or 8 hours of our working time. We are human.

It's not like I wanted to get any benefit so I start treating people well, but from hard lessons I now learned that it is very true about "what goes around comes around". If you treat others the way you would want to treat, you would be surprise how nicely they would treat you. Everything is a two way street. It seems that we only care about how bad some of the TTC workers work ethnic are, and we forget how much they bear with some of us when some of them were being assaulted seriously or even got killed while working. Why can't we fill the world with more love and forgiveness?

I showed that attendee some love, and I too, on my ride home, was smiling very silly and felt the love in the world. Love grows when we toss them all around us. When you give love out, it doesn't diminish, it comes back right to you with the same if not more strength.

The world needs more love. Why hate, when you can love?

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

How to love to love loved ones

When you know how to love to love, you will love to share love and show love with the one you love, with the love that you love to love, you made him/her fall in love and made him/her your loved one who love to love you. Now, with the love you had for the loved one you love and now loved you will then love you back with the love that he/she loves to love.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Love me at my worst, love me at my best

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe

"Your worst behavior is reserved for the person who loves you most because somehow, no matter what you do, that person will still and always accept you as YOU."

I think this is pretty true. I am not perfect, no one is. Though I'm doing self improvement now, but I would still have faults. Who's able to handle me? I'm sure someone in this world can do this well!! ^.^ I can't wait to meet this person ^0^

Saturday, February 27, 2010

愛 . 雪 . 笑



今年冬天,很少雪
但這一個星期一直下雪
今天早上醒來後,我花了幾分鐘望著窗外,看著大雪紛飛。
雪花大,沒有很大風,我最喜歡的其中一個類型的雪。
看這樣的雪,我的心也放鬆了。

突然想到了人生第一次見到雪那種興奮和驚訝。
畢竟這十年多來,雪,成為習慣,那種感覺早已消失。

換來的祗是麻木和缺乏感覺。

但是今天早上,我看著外面,我心想:“好漂亮的雪,雖然人們要艱難的鏟雪,雖然雪對無家可歸的人很慘,但雪,它其實仍是如此美麗的,只是我忽略

在積雪之下,一切也很平靜和美麗。 愛就像雪吧?

遺憾就讓它隨風吹走,落下的剩餘祗有愛,讓它掩蓋和熔化所有的仇恨和恐懼。待春天的時候一切都會從融化的“愛”中更新生命。

我仍然相信愛,愛仍是美麗的。想著想著,我心很放鬆,我的嘴也微笑了。我想永遠看著“愛"美麗的一面。其實快樂就是這樣吧?

"Love never fails" - 1 Corinthians 13:8

Monday, February 22, 2010

Devotional - No Fear

"There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love." - 1 John 4:18

What is there to fear if God sent his Son to die to redeem us? What is there to fear if we cannot be separated from the love God has for us in Christ Jesus? What is there to fear except ourselves? As we love God and his children, we are reminded by his love for us, which is far better than our meager love for others. Rather than run from him in fear, we bow before him in thanks, knowing that he who hears our prayers is also he who loves us and stops our fears

Prayer:
Loving Father, thank you that I can revere you without fearing your wrath. Thank you that I can revere your word and yet not be terrified by my inadequacies. May your love in me produce a closer likeness to your holiness, righteousness, justice, and mercy than all the laws, threats, and judges combined. Through Jesus, who ransomed me from sin, I pray. Amen.

Devotionals from Christianity.com

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Who's my Real Best Friend?

"A friend is the one who comes in when the whole world has gone out." -Grace Pulpit

"
A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg even if you are half-cracked."

"
Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand." -Emily Kimbrough

"
A friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should."

"You can always tell a real friend: when you've made a fool of yourself he doesn't feel you've done a permanent job." -Laurence J. Peter

"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart."

"When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who, instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness, that is a friend who cares." -Henri Nouwen

"A true friend unbosoms freely, advises justly, assists readily, adventures boldly, takes all patiently, defends courageously, and continues a friend unchangeably." -William Penn

"Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow."

"Oh, the comfort, the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person, having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all out, just as they are, chaff and grain together, certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away." -Dinah Craik

"I felt it shelter to speak to you." -Emily Dickinson

“When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there”

“A friend is someone who lets you have total freedom to be yourself.” -Jim Morrison

“Friends are angels who lift our feet when our own wings have trouble remembering how to fly.”

“The only service a friend can really render is to keep your courage by holding up to you a mirror in which you can see a noble image of yourself” -George Bernard Shaw

“Search not for a friend in time of need, for a true friend shall find thee.”

“I would prefer as friend a good man ignorant than one more clever who is evil too.”

"Best friend is someone who knows all about you and loves you anyway."

"When you look around and your world is crumbling or when you think no one loves you, your best friend is the one to run to you."

"When you are sad anyone can tell you it’s gonna be okay, but a true friend will mean it"

"A true friend will be you candle when it’s dark, your hope when it’s gone, and take your pain when it hurts"




At least now when I think very very hard, when I open my eyes so wide to look at all the past...

I know who is not. That person was never there for me truly, we were never connected, we were never even friends, we were strangers. Didn't accept me, didn't bother knowing me, didn't appreciate me, didn't care about me, didn't love me, didn't even want to talk to me. We did all the things best friends do, but we just weren't ones. Only there when we were happy, and not when we had problems and sad. What kind of "best friends" do that? And that's when I got mad and fuck everything up because I was so depressed with this false knowledge, I was all by myself the whole time and I was the only one that cares. At the end, it shows that I was right, you just don't care about us enough to solve things together anyway. and you can have your other "best friends" with you there now in your new life. I should have known better, why the hell did I trust our "past" and thought we will be best friends forever in our lives and can go through tough times together forever? I should be happy that I'm awake! For I found out I have a false best friend for way too long.

We Never were best friends, and probably never will be.

Good to know!

Who's my real best friends? God! and a few of my friends that I overlooked before, they are here for me, not only happy times!

Sunday, February 14, 2010

濃情新年新人節

農曆新年, 情人節, 他們有什麼共同點?

是愛。 家庭,朋友,愛人的愛。

有什麼時候比這兩個節日更為合適想你愛的人?

今年,我不僅提醒自己所有人對我的愛和關懷,我也提醒自己所有遺忘了的愛心和關懷,因為我渴望忘了多年的愛, 今年, 我終於發現我祗是一直錯過。我現在學會愛,不要仇恨。我現在學會關心,不要要求。我需要長大,我已經不再是一個嬰兒了。


我發現了要愛, 才會獲得渴望的愛.


會有一天,我終於可以在情人節和農曆新年,和我真的愛和真的愛我的人渡過? 今年, 我發現,我今生其實從來沒有真正愛過人,我也其實從來沒有真正被人愛過。 愛是多麼難的事情。我希望你今年有一個真正的"濃情節"! 因為你懂得真正的愛! 而我祈望我今年過一個"濃情新年新人節", 讓我"在這個新年重新做一個懂得濃厚人情味的人"!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Gym-Dreaming

現在,當我運動,我便會像朋友一樣跟天主談話,一路走著跑步機, 一路跨著跨步機。每當我有安靜的時間,影像開始再次浮上腦海. 現在我偶然想起過去我不知道我記得的快樂或不快樂的記憶,偶然想起一切我可以做但沒有做的事情, 也偶然想像一些他現在可能在做著的一切一切, 當我想到這最後一項時我的心非常非常痛。我的心矛盾的游走在消極和積極之間... 我有時消極,有時正面,有時是充滿希望的,有時是絕望。 我困惑, 我告訴祂這一切情緒, 和祂一起自言自語的分析了這些矛盾。

最後, 我告訴祂, 我不希望仍然這樣了,我真的不想去想任何不健康的東西。所以在腦海中,我想像用手遞給他一箱我所有不健康的念頭, 我說, "請把我的雜物拿走,因為我只需要帶好和有用的行李離開這一處地方, 我想離開這地方, 謝謝!" 現在, 天主像朋友, 像一個永遠與我在一起面對任何挑戰的友人。一個永遠不會離開我, 放棄我的友人。

每一次吸氣我想像我吸進積極的力量,每一次呼氣,我想像我把一個一個消極的思想, 把令我消極的人和事, 一下一下釋放出。我沒有發明這種方法,很久以前我已經知道,最近,我從書中再次看到它才真正使用。我從來沒有想到會有用,但這些天用了它確實對我幫助很大。

走 著走著, 我的眼睛不再看計時器, 流著汗, 腳下節奏只管一直繼續下去。我的心飄到窗外的天空, 看著車經過,看著雪花浮動, 我意識到,我只有現在的時間,世界走如此之快, 世界永遠不會停下來. 所以我要繼續向前跟上,我不再想浪費寶貴的時間。我不希望任何人對我失望, 我不希望自己失望。

在那一刻我對自己說, 從現在起每一步我也要用我的全部力量,就像我在如何流著汗如何覺得倦, 覺得我不能再走但仍然用盡所以氣力走下去!


如果我連這簡單的運動也不能堅持做, 我對人生還能做什麼?


我去健身房,我不能相信這麼快完成30分鐘快步和30分鐘有氧運動。擦著我的汗, 我很自豪。我沒有令自己失望. 我要一步一步做每一個未做和不想面對的事, 我不會停下來! 我知道我又行前多一步了!!


"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." - Philippians 4:13

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Reflection Part 5 只要人還在

"生命" 是最重要的
沒有生命, 你,我,他不會存在於這認知的世界中.

人生在世, 日常生活中, 我們做著很多東西:
每天起床,吃飯, 工作,娛樂, 睡眠...
我一直在想, 有沒有更多?

之前, 我用光我生命的熱情和能量, 我感覺絕望
在嘗試所有我想會讓我有意義的事情, 我仍然對生命絕望, 對每件事絕望, 我也越來越對自己的人生絕望
我沒有精力做任何事情, 我看不到出路.

不過,這些天覺醒後, 我終於從許多閱讀中找到了治療和填補這個空洞的答案

填補心靈的空洞, 物質世界中的東西是不能做到的
萬事的來源是造物主, 有些人稱之為"宇宙", "力量". 這"力量"建造了所有精神和物質世界的一切, 這"力量"便是答案! 如果我們能夠連接此根源, 那麼我們就會得到這個無限的能量. 這個能量可以做就一切,因為一切基本上來自它.

"生命" 是重要的, "精神生命" 更加的重要, 沒有健康的"精神生命", 我們沒有了至少一半或以上的"生命".
要有健康的"精神生命", 那麼我們需要"精神力量".
物質和肉體的滿足, 對我來說給我很少的精神力量.
我發現, 沒有什麼是比天主, 比愛更強大的精神力量了.

愛是一切的泉源. 天主是愛, 愛是天主. 天主是一切的泉源.
只要人還在生, 只要有愛, 我們會擁有一切, 因為一切來自愛
擁有愛, 生命不會再是絕望的.



"... in Him we live, and move, and have our being." - Acts 17:28
Meaning: In Him we have vitality, and have dynamic energy, and attain completeness.

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Reflection Part 4 只要心常開

如何畫下"人"的定義?

對我來說做人的意義是"快樂"

以前,當我年輕時, "快樂"是玩耍, 談笑話
年齡稍大了少許, "快樂"是買東西, 吃東西, 出街, 不回家, 做盡一切瘋狂的事情
年歲更大少許, "快樂"是與喜歡的人經常在一起, 做彼此喜歡的事情
人更大了, "快樂"是什麼?

每隔一會兒我便有這種感覺, "快樂"是什麼? 我覺得自己已經做盡了一切我喜歡的事情了?!
不再買東西, 不再經常出街, 不再到處吃東西, 不再經常談笑話, 不再做瘋狂的事
那麼"快樂"在我是什麼?
找不到答案, 我沮喪, 我不想做任何事情.
我不開心. 做任何事情變得不成功, 我落入這個不開心的陷阱

我可以在哪裡找到"人的意義"?

最近,在大量的閱讀和大量的祈禱
我發現,它實際上非常接近我, 環繞我周圍其實都是"意義".
"快樂"其實就是環繞我周圍的一切!

我忽視了許多東西,因為我總是往遠距離的看, 遠距離的找.
我上面說的一切也是快樂, 不過那些是比較輕而易舉的快樂. (低級low level的快樂..)
難找到的是內心深處的快樂 (高級high level的快樂), 我終於覺醒要在哪裡找了!

內心深處最終極最強烈永不褪色的快樂 ("高呢"的快樂! ^^)是要往心裡找!
只要我把"心打開", 心就會自然"開心"!
以前,我從來沒有打開我的心. 我總是在外面尋找它...
擁抱, 相信, 愛一切,我的心就會是快樂的真正泉源

而這個愛的泉源, 只有天主可以使它永流不息!
祂是一切萬物的泉源, 請給我力量, 我的天主! 請幫助我"升呢"! 哈哈哈!



"... be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind..." - Romans 12:2