Fourteen weeks and four days

So it's been that long since I blog here. And within these many weeks, lots have happened.

I have (re)found my new hobby. I am pretty in love with photo taking still.. especially when just the past weekend taking some amazing lightening and effect photos at the camping... I think I still love it so much that I wanted to explore more...! Can't wait for upcoming trip to Israel to take some amazing photo.. with a upgraded body too! v^0^v

I have found some new friends of my boyfriend's. They are extremely warm hearted people. Each of them have such distinct personality but when all of them group together, it's such a dynamic group that shines! Thanks for including me and I love being with them.

Oh, I had just slipped my mouth and yea.. I have found new love. I literally got moved by him four days after valentine's day. Is this a valentine's day fever? If so, then this must be a very long fever, we are still going strong.. nothing much has differ our relationship yet. Let's see how it gets when 6 months hit eh? I love him very much tho, he is the most retard(ly funny, kind, lighthearted, easy-going, smart, cute) human being who has yet being in my love life.

Unfortunately I have still not yet found a way to be with my family better, these days have been a stress, I still have been silently having power struggle between me and grams. I don't know what to do with seniors. Maybe I need to be home more but what is there to do?

Anyhow. Summer is almost here. I can't believe :D Happy June!

Giving love to my baby...

So it's been around 4 years since I have my baby rebel

I clean it occasionally, but mostly just do some simple wiping, blowing off dust and stuff.

But I decided I will do a better cleaning tonight:

- The strap got so dirty (with my sweat?!), so I washed it! (Ew, the water turns yellow, much like when I wash my sneakers...)
- The lens got greasy and dusty from using it outdoor with all those harmful sunscreen and bug repellent, so I use water and the best cotton I have to wipe it!
- And hey, I am doing maintenance for the lens my BIL lend me ;) (pat on myself for doing a great job) I love them and I hope I'm making good use of them :D (by using it alot and making it dirty?! haha)

I want to do more research and experimenting suddenly, maybe cos I had just talk to this new friend of mine today about cameras! It must be a call :) It's been a while I feel like into camera, not feeling into it for a while...

Am I turning back into the old self of me? (like I feel like I get slightly more materialistic again.. NO~~ I need my spiritual sense to stay strong... time to do some praying and meditation... I miss it alot I feel stress again with work and so much summer stuffs going on..)

Thank you for God, for everyone, for everything that's I'm having. I feel very content as of today!! I don't know about tomorrow. but I know as long as I keep this gratitude and spirit up, I am already a better person!

"Where one attention goes - energy flows."

One way you can notice if life is moving through you; instead of, life as moving from you is to pay attention. When life is coming from you, you are using a lot of personal effort to achieve a task. When life is moving through you, you are embracing and acknowledging the need for and dependence on your Creator's strength to sustain you each day and each moment of your life.

Pay attention to what matters... It's really true..
If it matters, you would keep your energy on it...

I know with my personal energy from me, and the strength from God through me. right now. when I am really concentrate on being happy and being with God. I am happy. I am with God. (right!!!)

Screw other things. Why do I have to spend energy on unnecessary things now.
I am going to kill this "me"...
It's not about what attention/care from others. it's about your own attention to yourself.
It's not about having others to support/cheer/help me, it's about having God to strengthen me.

Reading it millions times. - let it flow. naturally.. it shouldn't be hard when I'm willing to (why is it so hard still then?? am I not willing enough still... I want to punch something, I'm so mad.)

Project Overhaul - Follow up 3

Updated on my goals setting. (Warning: Long update, don't read if you don't give a darn about my goals hahha..)

Thanks for all the encouragement from my dearest friends and sister..
I feel refreshed and full of hope in most times (though I still feel the ups and downs. gosh, sometimes i wonder if I'm bipolar. my mood swing is pretty scary!)

So far I did the best part that i look forward to everyday/night - wake up in the morning!
SO so soos sosoos proud of myself. I'm wishing to wake up at 7:30am now. and today for some reason I woke up at 7:30am. (Honestly, some nightmares made me wake up but who cares, this is doing me good. I actually waking up early without alarm these days now! Cool eh!!)

Go to church is out of the question, I got to go every week at least once or if it's possible twice or more. praying, I pray all the time. probably every hour. so this is out of the question too

Learning Guitar... mm... haven't start. and I think I'm substituting it with learning to sing. Yes, I'm learning to sing (on my own :P self learn that's all... i'm not surprise if my neighbours start to love me cos I sing in my room. and hey. my grandparents already talking behind my back saying "what's she doing singing in her room". whatever. they like to talk behind my back for everything.)

Hey, but learning to swim is on the way!!! Magically, one day me and one of my best friends went swimming and she showed me how to do backstroke. I still can't do it. but now I can float on my back for as long as I want and then kick and also move my arm. I can slowly. I mean really slowly move forward (or backward?!??!) SOOO exciting! I cannot wait!

As for going to gym every other day. oops. I sort of make it into random days during the week now. and then I stil haven't clean my room. I got to clean it asap to put my exercise ball in and do crunches and stuff or else my abs won't be here this summer.. got to do this, got to do this, got to look fit)

Better skin. nothing too big of an improvement. I guess my acne is clearing out. and not breaking not as bad but still breaking out. I got to really get good sleep (which I still don't get.. sigh.!)

Breakfast challenge! I still eat breakfast everyday. but I sometimes so lazy to take photos :( cos I realize the photos might look the same cos I eat very similar food all the time!! Got to switch it up :) and I will upload pics. but it's been a month. i will keep going ^^

What else.. well I hug my mom once in a while now. and i talk to her everyday short and medium length talk (which is way way better than months of not talking). And then my grandparents seem happier. gramma always smile when talk now. is it because auntie mushroom almost coming to TO? or is it my positive aura? hahhahhaa Well.. grampa is okay and not as grumpy, but still grumpy..!

Portfo building. nothing in progress. got to move my butt. and hey i also got to keep learning flash and aftereffects. I realized many things want that now. and of course I kept saying I am learning web design, but I'm still stuck on basics! moving my butt ^0^

As for my own happiness project. I am in the process of planning it. Going to start on June. Yes. my half year happiness project! Can't wait!!

Booked

Yes. I'm booked.

I'm so happy that over the next four days I have booked with many activities that I can't wait to go to... volunteer work and search on monday, friends on tuesday, charity gala on wednesday, church on thursday and probably booking my family for Friday?! hehe...

Woohoo...! ^0^

My own Happiness Project

It's almost June. (I cannot believe it's been half a year since I had start my new year resolution)

So an updated on it would be:

I just got some achieved. And then others, not much completed, I realized I'm not into it much anyway.. (Things like: guitar - I want to.. but I really never got any music training.. I should try, but got bit discourage, so so far I only learned how to hold a guitar... and Swimming, I don't know where to start, I should really ask my friend to teach me...)

But on the good side, I did get myself this habit of waking up early and sleeping (relatively) early. I go to church every single week (once, if not twice) And also I talk to all my family members more. and I also answer my friends' phonecalls and even take the steps to call up people now. I also do walking and exercise every week. (sometimes just walking though..)

Achievement? YES, some sort of..

And since I got off track these days I am going to start my half a year plan now - my own little happiness project. (Inspired by this book I wanted to read since January called "The Happiness Project" - http://www.happiness-project.com/happiness_project/ but because I am broke so I am still waiting for the library copy - I"m 104 on the holding list!! ^^"")

Two days ago in the bookstore I saw this book (again) and I took the time sitting down somewhere and "test read" a chapter. Not bad! Really looking forward to read the whole. and I think it's a call for me to see this in the store (over and over again, not just two days ago). I really really want to start my own project! Will I make it? I guess... since now I got many more deas of what I want in my life compare to before (like last year). I can do this! ^0^

I will update on this.

Looking for.

Looking for job. Not a $job though!

I lost interest in working for $... Forgive me for not working. I have always have one or two part time/at least occasional job but this time around I really have no single $job in my hand! wow.. since high school..! (which is almost 10 years ago...)

I believe I won't starve anytime soon... I just have to say no to $ things and use my frugal ability and as long as it's not me to fill up the tank.... (sorry dad, just for now :)

Anyhow. I'm looking for something to bring me back my soul:

1) Volunteer - My church/hs friend's setting up me to this youth group. (woohoo! how did that happened I don't know, but we ended up reconnecting when I saw her in church and also we start fb each other. - Must be God's plan (I know it is). my only concern is people there would be too young for me to fit in, so I will see. I can be there but doesn't have to be too active right? hehe.

As for the volunteer work I really really really want to do. I applied for one by email (gosh, should I trust online apply.. but that's the only way for them.. I wrote a very nice coverletter (i think), they got to give me a call)... and another one I will drop by sometimes next week, pretty close by my area.

2) Any interesting design competition - and for now, just no entry fee ones. I saw this one for London skyline.. maybe I will try this. sounds interesting, and if I win, they will have me flew to London (?! nah they didn't say). hahahha.. whatever, just something to build up my port-fo. which I haven't got enough decent stuffs to put in since two years ago (i'm not a dedicate designer am I? I am a "dry artist"... feeling dry but I'm starting to feel it now~ I know i can come back)

So. Yes. this is my plan for this month.

Project Overhaul - Follow Up 2

So I have this list of goals I set as you might know (in the goals tab)

No! I fall back! I have to get this done by April I said :P

Oh well... there's always tomorrow.

So far I reached the church goal! I'm totally back there and doing readings everyday :) I'm so proud of myself! Anyway. I will tell you when I learn how to swim and guitar. :P

Even a Stranger would

Just now, as I came back from the mass. I found a surprise message in my facebook inbox:

Wanda H. R. March 21 at 10:35am
Sweet Savior, thank you for Angela and all the good things you have placed in her. Please help her in the situation she finds her self in right now. Give her your sweet peace and let her rest in your presence where there is fullness of joy. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Thanks God for using Wanda to show me your love to the humble me, this really hit my heart.
How come it seems so hard to keep prayers for the people we know and the family and friends we are so close to? While even a stranger would have offer prayers to another stranger?

Time for me to do more praying and forgiving.

Turning the Pages

Did that happen to you?

When you have a calendar on either your desk or wall, but you forgot or don't turn the pages of the month and let it sit, say, it was July but you still on the page of March (or even January)? ^_^

I did. and that's for almost for all of my previous years, I had not turn my calendar until the end of the years. (for 2009, in December, I realized the calendar still had the month April.... -__-)

Hey, add to my goal this year - "remember to turn the pages"

I am keeping this up at the moment. It's March now and my diary, desk calendar and wall calendar are all up-to-date! (So proud of myself)

Let's see how long I can do this. I am pretty confidence about this because I suddenly feels like there's this sense of life in me that I started to love my days. (instead of denial the dates and month and anxious about when is the summer going to come and when is the future going to happen).

I can only have my best days right here and right now, not in the past and not in the future. Today is all that matters.

Do you turn your page everyday?

Miss Congeniality

When we describe a person as "congenial" - They are friendly, compatible, agreeable, adaptive, consistent, gracious, pleasant, pleasing, mellow, sociable, cooperative, cordial, sympathetic, favorable, jovial, kind, considerate, approachable, gentle, and happy.

This is my ideal personality. I have been too angry, too tough, too rough, too bad in communication and too less of a girl... (gosh, that's how my family is, what do you expect when I always stuck with them?) I really don't like this part of me. I feel like I don't fit to be anyone's girlfriend or wife. WHY!! Why am I like this? Why can't I born as a girly girl!!! Why?

Sigh... I don't want to go into this negativity again. But there is this time I feel I am a really bad person. I want to be a good girlfriend and wife!! I have to work hard, I know I can be who I want to be, I always wanted to be this "congenial" girl, I always admire mellow, gentle kind of girls.

But is this possible for me??? -__- I have been looking at our Mother Mary's pictures and praying to her for a while now, I told her, "I want to be like you, please give me strength and courage to make changes on myself..." will I finally become a gracious girl one day???

I want to believe... but I can't help to want to cry... if only I'm a girly gentle girl comes from a healthy family, I can already have no problem with my personality and my relationship and could have already graduated, got nice job, got married, got my life all set and happy.

Sorry God, I am thinking negative again, I can't help. Because the way I am, I hate it. I promised myself not to hate anything but embrace and love everything. But I realized I hate myself the most now?!

Take away my anger and hatred please, I want to love, not hate, what's wrong with me!!!

Time Well Wasted

Recently, I feel like I don't have enough of time!!!

Does this mean I am starting to roll back to be busier than before? (I want to believe)

Back in a few years ago, I used to be so depress and think that there are so much time and don't know what to do with it - except I was waiting.

What was I waiting for??? I was waiting for some "salvation" - someone or something to cheer and bring me up. and I finally get it NOW. ^~^

The "thing" that can save me is all in myself. I have to save myself from being depress, no one else can do it, not my family, not my friends, not my doctor, not my boyfriend. >_<

I am willing to do it now, no one else can do it for me. No one else but me and with God's help. ^-^ I "wasted" tens of years to figure this out. and I know where to go FINALLY.

I am going to being this person I want to be - happy! ^0^

The Best Wake Up Call

No, it wasn't any particular mental realization call.
Just that I woke up with something I did not expected: Right at the moment when I slowly opened my eyes, when the light had just literally shined in my eyes, when my eyes had just took in darkness, to grey to brightness. I said it out in my tongue: "Thank God" ^-^ stretched out my arms and make a stretch, with my mind just started to gain conscious, I said another words: "Thank you for giving me another day. Today is going to be nice." Very faintly, very quietly, I heard myself saying that... O_o WHAT? I cannot believe, still. O_O Yo, I'm not making this up, I think I had finally got something rolling in my "overhauling" goal! ^0^ (Is my gratefulness growing back on me finally?????!!?)

What a great joy! Even something like this is amazingly enough to cheer myself up in this morning.
Thank you thank you thank you thank you!

Project Overhaul - Self Evaluation

Since I'm in the process of overhauling myself (which is going pretty well, just so you know :), I realize that I should look into myself more closely to see what else I can learn about myself and improve it.

"Simple", I'm too simple. I get carry away easily, in good or bad things. If I'm into it, I'm into it, crazily and want the most if not all out of it.

"Trustful", I trust whatever you say to me, I always get trick easily. I express my feelings freely, again, good or bad, but I have hard time expressing my thoughts, please be gentle and tolerance with me.

"Needy" Show me you want or need me there, don't ignore me. I like to share, everything, again, it can be good or bad things. Treat me with all you have and you shall have all of me. Like me for who I am, for I like you for who you are.

"Indecisive" I don't make decisions, I discuss and compromise, I expect you to do that with me together. I am brave and bold, but I don't necessary take all the first steps, sometimes I tend to wait for you to show me your care. I have hard time even deciding what to eat from a menu, well I got better at that now.
"Denial" I get lazy or run away from doing things at times, most likely is because I am scare to take actions and feel not enough confident.

"Disrespectful" I regret for being uncontrollable and angry at times, I really don't mean it, it's mostly my inner feelings that I can't seems to take full control yet.

"Selfish" I learned that everything should never be about me, it's about each one of us. I realize I'm so selfish that I think of myself first. I used to think of others before myself, I have to bring mental state that back somehow.

"Forgetful" I forget a lot of things, but I learned that I need to remember more. I have hard time learning things. I forget. I need to remember more for sure.

"Guesser" I take times to think of you a lot, I do, in good ways. About things that you say, things you do. I do want to make everyone happy, it's probably because I want myself to be happy too and be treated the same way.

"Anxious" High strung, for things that I care a lot, I get very very anxious, I want things to be perfect, if not I get emotional and hate it for it not being good enough.

Thanks for all the support! I look forward to show you my new lala!

Overcoming Fear Factor

"Fear is the most disintegrating enemy of human personality. Worry is the most subtle and destructive of all human diseases." - Norman Vincent Peale "The Power of Positive Thinking"


I am curing this "disease" right now, it has devastated me in recent years, I felt like I have a half of myself dead. Even my real body condition was screwed. I still have this blood check which I did not go in mid December, I'm a bit worry, what if I really got that incurable disease my doctor told me about? I think I should really go for the check but I'm scare, I had been quite scare for months about that. God, help me and give me the courage?

Worry and Fear, I really don't like you, because you took away so much important thing of mine. From now on, I'm going to be fearless, I will because I and God said so.


"If God be for us, who can be against us?" - Romans 8:31

福或禍也從口出

有很多時候，我會說一些我不應該說的話。在零點零零零一毫秒後，我就後悔我關上嘴不夠快. 我是不考慮全方位的"孩子", 我知道不應這樣做的, 但我似乎缺乏控制能力. 我高興的時候，我很開心，當我瘋狂生氣的時候, 我很生氣. 現在我有我的教訓，真正傷心的教訓 - 任何人都沒有責任承受我的態度和感覺. 任何朋友，家人，在沒有事先告訴我的前提下他們隨時可以走開。我被"解僱"了, 沒有我可以彌補的，唯一做的是收拾行李離開. 我什至不能回頭望一眼，說一聲。 因為我這個人被"即時解僱"了, 他們將即時僱用別人。 誠實的感覺可以使您成功或將您摧毀, 我自我的沉痛的教訓學到. 我學到永遠永遠不要在不好的情緒下說話，我學到，永遠永遠, 所有誠實的壞感覺，只有一個地方，我可以棄置 - 天主的垃圾桶. 任何人，任何地方也不能棄置，即使是你最信賴的人, 因為越堆積任何壞感覺, 您祗會越建造一個死實實漆黑黑的死胡同在你前面，您和您相信那最理解你的人也不能看到對方. 那時，沒有一樣東西你可以做, 你只能做的是往回走, 永遠和這個人分隔在兩個地方, 永遠不交叉.

改變我不快樂的感覺, 我只能改變我的心為快樂。哪裡可以得到快樂幸福？我開始發現在哪裡。會不會有一天我能找到一個人永遠跟我一起走？ 走在死胡同也和我一起勇敢走出來? 為什麼沒有一個人跟我可以一起走？ 有沒有人當我情緒生病, 當我在最需要的時候不留下我, 放棄我？我的心是真的病了，就像感冒發燒一樣, 為什麼這個我最信賴的人離開我？

我現在只能想到的是天主. 我學到了不要充分信任任何人，我學到了不要高估任何事情和任何人, 除非你真的肯定，我以為我肯定, 最終這個永遠不應該有的想法將我摧毀. 現在我只會肯定永不放棄我的天主 ! 請帶走我的怨恨, 天主 ! 我只是想愛和快樂!

祝您我好運!

你有給你的靈魂食物嗎?

在我上學的日子, 雖然我還沒有完全掌握"不趕不忙"的藝術, 但我已經開始戒掉"最後一分鐘"的習慣 ("Last minute" Habit ^. ^v)。 吃過輕便的早餐，把東西, 一些零食和電腦放入我的袋中... 檢查我有沒有電話，有沒有鑰匙, 有沒有穿襪子... ^u^ 還有一個非常重要的！ 最近, 出門前我一定檢查的是我有沒有帶給我在公車之上讀的書。閱讀成為我一天最最最期待, 最最最高興的部分，我好想好想一整天也讀！(但我不能，我會看累, 試過睡著了！因為讀書是如此放鬆和快樂)

我真的非常期待完成這一本一本令我如此快樂的書...也許你覺得我太怪，我突然地迷上這些教人快樂，教人積極，教導人們宗教的悶書! @ . @ 也許我心中是個書呆子? 我不知道，哈哈! ^0^ 但我可以說的是這些書讓我感到安全，每一頁每個章節給了我我從來不知道有可能成真的生活態度, 在我現在的困難中它給我沒有人給過我積極的希望和鼓勵。不是說我從來沒有任何人鼓勵我，有很多朋友們，男朋友們和輔導員給過我他們的鼓勵, 但書本的確有非常非常大的作用，它的力量是遠遠超過其他人做到的, 它就像一個專業和非專業人士的差異！試想像，這就像是你讀數學和物理，用嘴巴教，或用教科書教，哪一個是更有效？我會選擇教科書, 因為它有所有細節，它不只是說。我以前常想“講就易!! 你怎麼知道我的處境?”, 所以無論這些關心我的人告訴我什麼，從來沒有進入我的心，因為他們的表示方式, 沒有被我接受。但在這些書，他們指出所有我故有的想法和懷疑，他們已經知道我有這種心態, 周到地指出, 分析, 提出例子, 給我提出不同的解決辦法！

"我想快樂"，這就是我唯一一樣我一直想要的，我的生命中, 過去 二十多年來沒有真正的做到過。這是命運? 我要在此極度悲憂, 臨界崩潰的情況下，才會終於讀這些書。如果沒有這段深沉的藍色時期，我不認為我會像現在這樣不僅讀這些書, 還要充滿希望, 快樂地讀這些書。^ ^

我答應自己，我會繼續讀書, 直到我成為我想做的"真正快樂人"！這是非常真的: “書籍是靈魂的食物”, 書讓你更新你的頭腦和釋放更多的創意。我已經覺得在我的精神層面有這樣的變化在發生中，真的非常令我激動, 感謝我現在發生的每件事，這些事祇讓我變更強！ ^v^

Gym-Dreaming

現在，當我運動，我便會像朋友一樣跟天主談話，一路走著跑步機, 一路跨著跨步機。每當我有安靜的時間，影像開始再次浮上腦海. 現在我偶然想起過去我不知道我記得的快樂或不快樂的記憶，偶然想起一切我可以做但沒有做的事情, 也偶然想像一些他現在可能在做著的一切一切, 當我想到這最後一項時我的心非常非常痛。我的心矛盾的游走在消極和積極之間... 我有時消極，有時正面，有時是充滿希望的，有時是絕望。 我困惑, 我告訴祂這一切情緒, 和祂一起自言自語的分析了這些矛盾。

最後, 我告訴祂, 我不希望仍然這樣了，我真的不想去想任何不健康的東西。所以在腦海中，我想像用手遞給他一箱我所有不健康的念頭, 我說, "請把我的雜物拿走，因為我只需要帶好和有用的行李離開這一處地方, 我想離開這地方, 謝謝!" 現在, 天主像朋友, 像一個永遠與我在一起面對任何挑戰的友人。一個永遠不會離開我, 放棄我的友人。

每一次吸氣我想像我吸進積極的力量，每一次呼氣，我想像我把一個一個消極的思想, 把令我消極的人和事, 一下一下釋放出。我沒有發明這種方法，很久以前我已經知道，最近，我從書中再次看到它才真正使用。我從來沒有想到會有用，但這些天用了它確實對我幫助很大。

走 著走著, 我的眼睛不再看計時器, 流著汗, 腳下節奏只管一直繼續下去。我的心飄到窗外的天空, 看著車經過，看著雪花浮動, 我意識到，我只有現在的時間，世界走如此之快, 世界永遠不會停下來. 所以我要繼續向前跟上，我不再想浪費寶貴的時間。我不希望任何人對我失望, 我不希望自己失望。

在那一刻我對自己說, 從現在起每一步我也要用我的全部力量，就像我在如何流著汗如何覺得倦, 覺得我不能再走但仍然用盡所以氣力走下去!


如果我連這簡單的運動也不能堅持做, 我對人生還能做什麼?


我去健身房，我不能相信這麼快完成30分鐘快步和30分鐘有氧運動。擦著我的汗, 我很自豪。我沒有令自己失望. 我要一步一步做每一個未做和不想面對的事, 我不會停下來! 我知道我又行前多一步了!!


"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me." - Philippians 4:13

被天主拍膊頭

今天早上七點多鐘, 鬧鐘還沒有響, 我已經緩緩清醒。已經這樣一段時間了, 我是否對按時醒來太緊張了？我又想，是我一天一天越來越健康了!

但是當我緩緩地在床上坐起身來，緊密我的眼睛，我掙扎著我應不應該去見我的學校導師! 我想我需要更多的睡眠，因為我為了今天的功課昨晚工作至深夜. 仍然緊密我的眼睛, 但突然有這股力量在我身上流動，我不困了。是我內疚？我的良心嗎？這肯定是天主的鼓勵!

讀著讀著這些天我最喜愛的書, 很快很容易到達學校, 我感覺不錯. 感謝這種平靜坐車之旅! 隨之而後有一點緊張... 因已經十個月沒見過學校導師, 我又有一點內疚, 因為現在我很傷心，我才又找她?! 步行上樓梯，開門，我告訴自己，"沒關係，天主與我一起, 沒有什麼東西擔心的。"

一見面, 她很歡迎我，我說 "我知道很長時間沒見過你..." , 她說 "你永遠不必擔心.." 我與天主的交談成真了! 我很高興我勇敢回來。我答應過自己, 我要一步一步完成每一個未完成和不想面對的工作! 今天完成一個, 我又行前一步了!!

見面主要是更新我的最新消息給她聽。我們沒有談得很深入，因為有太多太多的東西! 最後，我們談論一些志願工作。我提到我一直在這個促進精神健康的青年組做志願工作。她說很好, 社會非常需要這種類型的服務，她說她來到 OCAD 以前，她的工作是輔導兒童和青少年的精神問題。 她鼓勵我們擴充這個青年組, 下次見面她可以和我研究? 哇。這真是好! 從很久以前，我們已經希望使這一群體擴大，但我們從來沒有得到機會, 又沒有足夠的資源, 最重要的是，我們需要幫助. 現在我真的想做了，因為我愛這志願工作組！這肯定又是天主對我的鼓勵! 目標又多了一個!

今天天主對我有太多太多鼓勵! 如果我寫每一個細節，這會佔用另一頁! 所以，我會盡快在這裡說完它了:

見過學校導師後, 我花兩個小時在做我的功課, 感覺有點餓, 在想，我需要更多的時間找一些食物當午飯, 不一會兒後，這傢伙拿著一盤鬆餅和糕點問人們要不要一些，說因為樓上開會吃不完! 他走到我的桌子，當然，以我的節儉作風，我很高興接受了! 哈哈哈! 太好了！我什至不須到外面去找食物，又可以繼續工作! 感謝在這不能更好的最佳時間, 給我美食充饑!

當我上課，我才知道每個人要做presentation！我沒有準備! 在休息時間，我做了一個簡單的 power point, 在沒有什麼準備下做了一個不錯的 presentation. 每個人都投入討論我的作業. 太好了! 感謝主鼓勵我不到最後一分鐘也不放棄!

當回家時, 我們等了很久的列車人多到沒有位給我上車, 我首先想到的是，"現在下午6點 ，下一列車也沒有位了..." 然後我想，"這沒關係，不要緊. 我在班上坐了三個小時, 站著好!" 然後下一輛車很快來到, 還要有很多位甚至不用爭位, 不用站! 感謝讓我放鬆地上到地鐵!

wǒ men děng le hěn zhǎng dì liè chē

感謝天主感謝天主感謝天主!!! ^_^



"This is the day which the Lord hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it." - Psalm 118:24

Project Overhaul - Follow up

So it's been almost two weeks since I set some goals..

What's happening now?

So far I had not missed any class! (HURRAY)
I had go to Church every Sunday! (HURRAY!)
I had hugged my mommy whenever I go out if she's by the door seeing me off (HURRAY!!)
I had woke up everyday around (at least) 930am! (HURRAY!!!)
I am keeping this blog alive! (HURRAY!!!!)

Now these five are down! More to come and more to do ^_^
More to keep up!!!

Everything's possible right!!!

Wish me! Pray for me!