It is here, when you simply stop wanting

Took a walk outside for 45mins.
spent around 15 mins did some meditation - failed.
I can't stop thinking of all the things in my mind.
I want to take all the rest of my time from now to figure out how to meditate.
I am addict to reading books. Good addiction?! But I realized.. .
reading is good to take away your minds and learn stuffs.
But I need more than taking care of the mind. I want to connect to my soul.

Anyway. towards the end of my walk today.
Saw the birds and trees and butterflies, I thought to myself.. all I need is to stop thinking and just do what my instinct tells me. Just like what animals do.
What more should I want in this world really? Why do I have to keep thinking so hard about what's next to do, what to do next day, week, year?

So I got hungry.. need breakfast. I was thinking to go home and cook some fried rice. That's the natural thoughts flow, cos the fridge got some leftover rice from last night, then I should eat it.
Surprisingly when I walked in the house, gramdad already cooking.
I was surprised because he never cooks early in the morning. in fact, he doesn't usually cook at all!

Things come when I stop planning eh???
by just do what's right in front of me.. and think what's right and good..
I actually would get what truly is right.. and it just feels right.

It must be... this must be the "law" in our lives.
Every creatures naturally follow the path in front of us.
There's really no need to plan ahead I realized.
Just follow. and stay natural. yes. this must be it.