Honesty.

I realized I'm not as honest and simple of a person that I once thought I am.

There are many things I hide and run into denial and then I run into madness and emotional states. Hoping someone would take the step and talk to me and analyze with me. But no one would ever do that. I realized.

I want to be the old me when I was younger, I want to be honest and care free. But I don't want to whine or cry about things I don't like like a baby when I was a teen.

How to be honest but not affecting others?
A very hard lesson to learn. ^__^

"EQ" 101 - Must be lots and lots of respect to others and stay away from people in an emotional distance. Pin point the problems and do lots of talking, without emotions involve.

I learned after all, I'm by myself. No one else is responsible for my emotions and no one else is responsible for me being sad. No one else care or able to take in any of my emotions no matter how close two person appears to be, NEVER. Don't assume you both can take in everything together. NEVER -__-

In love with God at the moment.. because He is the only one who can take emotional worries/negativeness and He does not complain any bits of my negative emotions... Why didn't I realized before? God is my ideal "man" hahahha. ^__^