"Whenever you talked to him. You always sound like asking for a fight."
I did. I demanded. I frustrated.
About what?
you? family? life?
Maybe all.
But probably I was frustrated about everything AND myself the most
"Why didn't I deserve more gentleness, more love, more success, more everything?" I asked myself.. since a long time ago.
I was greedy, I was mad, I want more. Cos I think I don't have much.
I put all my energy into me and you. All energy, good or bad.
God wasn't with me, my friends weren't with me, my family weren't with me
I thought I had you, you had me. I put all into you, all of my naked self, good or bad.
Sorry. I hurt everyone.
Afterall, I only have myself with me who can tolerate me. What did I expect?
I called God too late, a punishment? a new beginning?
I'm weak, I don't want to fall into this hole again.
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