Don't Understand.

The melody of the song is terrible, I think the lyrics can be better, and I have no clue why is this singer became a singer at all... but I have this feeling this song is planned for me to hear it, because I have not listen to any new chinese songs for literally years (probably 3 to 4 years)... and here I go seeing this MV on the TV when I came back from Church. What the?

I like the lyrics though, suits me right! :P I am totally relate to it.

從前流淚光 - 鍾舒漫

作曲：鍾舒漫
填詞：游思行
編曲：謝浩文
監製：謝浩文

從前流淚光 埋藏某地方
妄想跟失望 傷心激盪

＊原來那淚光 明瞭才是光
痛苦的海岸 許多寶藏

#我是那樣那樣愛他 我是那樣那樣愛他
Don't you see we'll last forever... forever
我是那樣那樣愛他 逐年逐年地忘掉他
為何為何又談論他

說句好話吧 善心的欺騙只想終結更優雅
我對他思想 意會嗎
仍記得他所說的話 男人的軟弱 可以了解嗎

Repeat ＊, #

說句公道話 自己一賭氣比他生氣更可怕
和平的相處要學嗎
仍記得他所說的話 如果想靠近 不要太喧嘩

以後莫失莫忘 情是有風浪
平靜看風浪 我的可愛滲和了血汗

說句多謝吧 自己的需要終於真正了解嗎
從前的不必太念掛
仍記得他所說的話 人生想快樂 要變鮮花

從前流淚光 埋藏某地方
妄想跟失望 傷心激盪
原來那淚光 明瞭才是光
我找到寶藏

Questions and answers in my mind after I thought over it:

Q1: Guys want girls to understand guys, but do guys even try to understand girls?
A: I should try harder to understand them. But it should be a two way street. Why do girls have to chase after guys and crack them open so they finally speak what's in them? I'm not good in expressing and counseling, I'm not the girly girl, does that mean I don't deserve a guy in my life time? Guys just run away when things don't go their ways, every guys do that. They never care, they never go out of their ways, they just don't care about anything. When they said they try, they probably did but they did it in all the wrong ways and they don't care to go further than that.
Q2: Guys don't like girls who are loud and emotional.
A: I also don't like guys who are insensitive and don't express their thoughts. I deserve to be full of emotions because I am the way I am, and life without dramas and emotions is just plain bore. But I did go overboard about anger that is true, but still, it's a two way street. Guy can find a way to get to me, if you really try. I'm so easy to get happy and sad, like a kid. You just have to do it and don't run away from me, or I get more noisy. When girls get emotional, it's probably all about the guys, so stop blaming everything on girls, guys cause everything and it's so simple to fix it, just talk and don't run.
Q3: If anyone wants to be happy, you have to keep it fresh and live in present.
A: Living in present is good, I agree. But how to keep things fresh? Again, it's a two way street. Why do girls have to do all these by herself, when all guys do is just staying home watching TV and expect us to do everything else? I just want to spend good times together, not watching TV or computer or video games every night. They are the ones who make everything stale. Good things never last I guess, they do all the things in the beginning and screw your mind up to make you think they care so you do all the things for them after. They never care.

Gosh, these answers don't make me go anywhere. I need more thinking to understand. and I apologize for over generalized guys. I think my old "Guys sucks issues" are creeping back at me.

God, help me take away my negativeness, and change me into a smarter and loving person??? I know I can do this if I believe.