Difficult Joy

Have you been on those newer TTC bus lately? Today I just noticed how there are 4 surveillance cameras on the ceiling! I have never notice that many. By having all these cameras, it shows that that particular public space is closely watched. However, it is ironic to see that the LCD monitor for showing the destination stops are not working well on this bus I took today - it only showed half of the name of the street and it's kind of sux that the first half of the street name does not shown! (only the "avenue" part shown which makes it so useless because that's not the main point!). So being on a bus like this is like going to an unknown destination, but while the cameras closely watch us, we are safe and sound. Kind of a weird feeling.

Maybe because I'm so occupied by the idea of God and God's will at the moment, I see this as a sign that God's showing me. Related to the book I had just finished called "Pure Joy" by R.T. Kendall about getting pure joy in our life through spiritual gratification.

The first kind of joy described is something the author called "joy by faith".

During difficult trials in life, we probably all feel the opposite of joy, but if we are to "consider" it pure joy by doing it by faith: "trusting God without the evidence that we have got it right. It is imputing value to the present trial without proof that it will turn out well. By faith we know it will."

I find it very difficult, because for all the trials I'm going through, not one, but a few of them all together (because I have never overcome them before so it accumulated), I am trying very hard to reach this "difficult joy" I called it. After giving it more thoughts, now I realized it is not too hard to do that!!

Going back to the bus cameras and the monitor that only half of it works, I can see how God's work and plan is working --- He watches each of us very close, every one, every corners and every move are being seen. But on the journey to the goodness that He prepared for us, He does not show us exactly where that will be. --- We only have to trust him fully, enjoy the ride!

Haha, I must have sound crazy, but I took this idea in fully now that I want to regain my long lost faith in Him, our Father. I'm so glad these small things I see in everyday comes together as lessons that I am learning from my reading.

I now know that I just have to keep going and don't worry! Eventually, there will be the things He prepared for me! I just know it will!