Re: On the Fear of Death

I'm not facing death right now.
But these days, many times I have come across thoughts of dying.

I don't know why I think of the many things that could kill me:
Images of the exacto-knifes on my wrist, chinese chopping knife accidentally chop my wrist, driving a car on highway and crash, crossing the street and got hit by a car, taking pills and die on my bed, or just simply go to sleep some night and never wake up from no particular cause.

I know what your thinking, I am not suicidal, no worries!!! (maybe slightly if you consider asking "what if I die" as suicidal... but truly, I don't want to die!!) But the images that came to me since last week scared the hell out of me abit. Why do I think of death these days? Do I fear of death so much now that I worried about my own ending??

Death is not familiar with me (obviously, because I never die! :P)... but I have a feeling, death can be near. I don't know. It's scary to think of! Anyway, NO, this is just my thoughts :) I truly wish myself and everyone I know are well!!!

But there are times when I ask myself, what if I die? What's going to happen. (gosh and my room of crap, who's going to clean that up?. and who will "inherent" my collection of random papers/pictures/drawings/magazine clippings, keroppis, tons of books, tons of photos, small amount of money, camera or laptop? maybe I should come up with a list of people I want to give some stuff too... as a "goodbye" gift.. as a personal project called "be prepared"! and who deserve my dirty little diary? mm... hahaha.. )

Anyhow. I should think more on life than death. I don't think I will die anytime soon. Though these days I thought that I want the life after death more than the life on earth. But the I still have so much I want to do in this human world~! So I don't want to leave just yet.!!! :))