Unsux

Alright,

Scrap that last post.

I am going to write something even better than the "sucky theory".
I shall apply my learning these months and write a "unsucky theory"

I will pick a better name for this ^^"

Sux

Alright.
For those who always hear me saying a million times "guys suck" in the past 10 years.
Let me tell you. guys sux, and probably girls too. To be fair now. actually alot of things sux. probably my mind's sux so that's when I see everything sux? (many books and quotes tell me that whatever your mind is is what you see, something like that).. Maybe! (sadly)

I will get back to this "sucky theory" (your doing this again???) no, it's not the same, this time, I shall come up with a more fair and organized "theory" with actual "supporting arguments" that stating the reality of the "suckiness in human"...!! (Sounds like an exciting read doesn't it? - the "suckiest theory"!!!.. hopefully not written in the suckiest writing and not by the suckiest writer.. :P.. but how can the author not be really sucky to write the suckiest essay?? I guess I have to ask myself this question - do I really want to try writing this.. hehee..

Time to go back for more spiritual reading, shall I? So I don't feel too upset before I go to sleep, I don't want to bite my tongue or have any weird dreams in the middle of the night again. (~~lalalalalala.. making a sign of cross)

Passing

Nothing deep about the title.

Was just on the road today. Thinking about the question that always come to my mind when on the road: Why do people want to step so hard on the gas petal and then step equally hard on the brake?

As usual when I'm out with my grams, I drive extra cautious and be ultra stable by minimizing braking. (Though I consider myself a very stable driver in all time ^0^).

So I tended to tick off some cars behind me because we were approaching red lights. How? I was only doing the right thing ^_^ I don't step on the gas petal and let my car "roll" below the speed limit. So I tend to do that to 1) minimize braking 2) of course, save gas!!

Drivers are very impatience these days.

Speaking of impatience... ohh.. the good old days when I would get pissed off by other drivers... don't get me started on those times I "play" with the cars who honked me after I was only 2 secs idle after the light turn green by stopping there even longer, and the few other times a car wanted to pass me from behind and I blocked it from cutting into my lane by keeping myself beside it, oh, God bless that one time this guy that almost crash into the bus... oops. now that I think about it, did i really do it? Forgive me, my Lord for I have sinned...

Why do people want to go 60 or even 70 when they can see the red light in front of them? (or do they not see it?? haha) They are wearing out their brake belt plus wasting gas too. I hate sharp brakes and there's no point to do that when you know you are going to stop, why not just go for a "smooth stop" instead of "sharp stop"?

Same thing goes to many things in life. Can't you already see some distance ahead of you if your driving? Like if you are expecting a red light, slow down, don't keep going and brake like crazy. If you are expecting a turn, you prepare by signaling and again, slow down. If you miss a turn or lost on the road, you either keep going around the block, or stop somewhere to look at the map, don't just freak out and confusing the car behind you. Your in control, but you don't own the road! (or I guess I should say, we all own the road by paying taxes!)

Since there are many worse driver than I am (I can never consider myself the perfect driver yet, but I'm pretty good, at least my grams approve me. grampa's driving instructor in hk and my gramma use to drive.. though their standard must be "outdated" but still! they always say I drive very smooth.. hohohoho)

I learned not to get impatience anymore and my goal is to "educate" others by driving smoother on the road because we need to bring back the patience and politeness on the roads of Toronto. (I still remember how nice the road's "atmosphere" was 10 years ago!)

Patience Driving makes the road/world happier!! hahaha...^0^ (or does it make some other pushy driver more unhappy??!?!) Anyway. ^_^

Project Overhaul - Follow Up 2

So I have this list of goals I set as you might know (in the goals tab)

No! I fall back! I have to get this done by April I said :P

Oh well... there's always tomorrow.

So far I reached the church goal! I'm totally back there and doing readings everyday :) I'm so proud of myself! Anyway. I will tell you when I learn how to swim and guitar. :P

Jam-Pack or Slack-Pack

Probably slack pack.
Since it was my first week out of class this term.

It's slack-pack time -___-

Not good

And I will update tomorrow when I done my "jam-pack day" today with some cooking, finish a poster project and exercise! ^__^

Drowning

I "drown" myself alot

I drown myself at many moments. sometimes it's crazy laughing session, sometimes is indulging in my eating (eating alot!), sometimes it's internet marathon session, sometimes it's non-stop reading and reading. while other times I drown in frustration or sadness.

I tend to dive into things alot and forget to "get back up"! (I'm glad I'm not addict to anything too harmful/pricy.. :P)

hahaha. I have to learn "swimming", so that I can "rise above everything" all the time. I am going to be conscious about what I'm doing cos I need that before I feel my life is a total screw (right now it's screwed but not too screwed.. haha)

I can float, but I drown sometimes still. For real, in real life or my mental life. I need to learn "swimming"!

Hold the Judegement and Assumption

Okay. Just now I was reminded by God from both the morning mass and the TV mass!

I am guilty of doing these. and I only did these on the people closest to me. For others I did not care less, so there's nothing I would be angry about when I am not close to them.

But I learn that the closer the person is to me, the less I should really judge or assume.

Who in this world can for real stand a fight with me, and then talk things out with me by keeping the conversation calm or get me talking at least. cos I have such a short temper. I get caught in moments easily. If the person can't keep it cool and start assuming I'm this bi*ch, it's a disaster!

I fight cos I care!!! I don't fight with anyone who I don't care.

But why is there no one in this world ever understand this? Do I really seem like I hate everything? I don't. I start hating things because other people don't care about anything. I'm always the one who care about every little things. Why?

I have to stop assuming everyone being the same as me I guess!! I have to really say it out loud what's that I'm feeling... This is very hard to me.. I never tell others what I actually thinking/feeling because I don't know how to!!! and half of the time I have no clue why the heck I get so angry either... (like I never have anyone to really open up since I born... not my family, not my best school friend, not my sis.. not anyone... not even myself! )

Lesson Learned!

These are so hard to do, but I know I can do this when I keep my mind on Jesus.. and do what He would do! (The best and single way... do everything for the purpose of love)