Post one last little note in 2012

I said a little prayer for myself today...

I think I don't need this and that to be happy, is it wrong to think so?
Why is my 'other self' is telling me you need this and that, then you will be happy?

Anyway, I said a little prayer, for myself, that I can be happy by just being happy.
I'm happy these days, even when there are quite a few things to worry... :)

Anyway, Merry Christmas, it's this time of the year again huh?
Two more work days, and I'm off till 2013!! YAY See you in 2013

(P.S. Sorry blog, I neglected you for so long again, but I know you are happy just cos you are happy hehe...)

New Blog

It's been decided, I'm going to create a art and design related blog. I always come across fabulous looking designs but I never really document any of them. This new blog will be a design blog curated by me and only dictate by my amazing taste..! muhahahhahah~! :D

Documentary: "I am Fishead"

This documentary talks about topics from corporate psychopaths (mostly means emotionally lacking and self-center, usually ambitious, very intelligent and career successful) vs. psychopaths people thought there are (ie. murderers, crazy serial killers) as well as sociopaths (people lacking empathy), wealth driven corporate society (people blindly follow authority and the top of the pyramid), to anti-depressant (happy pills). In general, they investigate the society's obsession to happiness, authority and success in life.

I feel that the documentary jumps around a bit, and it would be alot more interesting to have it more concentrated on corporate psychopaths and the corporate world/consumerism instead of turning into the many ideas... I sort of ended up sidetracking and turning it off to look up more about corporate psychopaths on my own research.

After a while, I decided to continue watching the film since I'm halfway, they then talks about people who take anti-depressant and how it might closely related to be a person who have traits of corporate psychopaths where they are confident individuals, they feel they need to be using the drug to bring them back into the norms that they lack, and they are people who wants feedback and rewards.

It went on to the fact people follow authority, we do what people were told us to do and feel the responsibility to follow. Then jumps onto consumerism and the pursuit of happiness.. and then talks about gut feeling and the ego centric, non-responsive beings that usually don't take action even tho it's right. Then the idea of how our actions and behaviours are affected by each other.

At the end, 'we are all fishead', not just the corporate psychopaths... We are all to be blame and all the problems in the society are the result of these topics.. "No freewill in our world" "We are a herd" and what we can do to change this is to change the social norm, and surround ourselves with the goods, be moral and have principles.

So much to think about, so little to leave behind for me, I feel the documentary went downhill from halfway. The big grand ending was just too general - "people just generally are good and passive, not willing to be a hero, and are mostly silent.." "We need to voice out our good and be good"...

"What would you do?"

I F*&%ed up

Long while since I blog, maybe this has become a pattern that this blog exist for recording the most saddening/happy moments of mine. Hope happy takes up more blogspace..?

Anyway, gosh, the ride has not been smooth, a lot of things.. I realized life is really complicated. It's not easy, nothing is easy at all. Even gaming takes skills, school takes skills, saving coupons takes skills, survival takes skills, cooking eggs takes skills, making everyone happy including myself takes skills. Is it possible to even make everyone happy? I don't know. I just think that it's too easy to make everyone upset, including myself. So easy to ruin everything eh?

Empty-mindedness can very much kills alot of things. --- is what I learn in the past few days. Winter camping kick-assly awesome it was sooo good, but the process of the trip sucks ass big biiiig big time.

Shoot. I screwed up. *cry*

Try harder next time!!! *shout*