I'm so in love... with today's weather!! When I was walking outside, (even tho it's for work and during work time) the cool breeze and warm sun totally reminded me of those many wonderful summer trips in the past few years...!! Awww.. such fond memories~! ..^^..

While it won't last forever, this summer is very wonderful so far, I am enjoying it while it last!

Why be in a relationship that isn't really a relationship

It's coming back. I need sleep I guess. Not feeling right this week.
AND this stupid facebook update page is VERY annoying.

Hide hide hide.

Sorry people, I don't meant to hide you but I meant to hide something else!!

Maybe sometime soon I will quite facebook.

Why be in a relationship that isn't really a relationship?
Do we have to rely on facebook to stay update of each one of our friends now?
Are they even my friends if I have to do this.

I'm counting... I only hang out with 5 people now... I don't feel I have friends beside them.
haha.. good or bad? I have to stay positive and thing it's good...

Do friends need to hang out to stay close? Maybe.
Do lovers need to see each other to stay together? Maybe... more like Yes.

If we cannot see each other at all. there's really not much relationship there.
I don't believe in internet love, or phone love or long distance love.
If you are not good at expressing yourself, lazy talker, or you are insensitive to yours or other people's feelings, go find that girl/guy next door, it's better for you.

Anyway. how did I end up writing this. good night, I need to watch some curious george to cheer myself up. bye.

Why be a flower that no one care to look at

Wow. I could have become the Caribana dancer but I choose not too! ^0^

Maybe I should have said yes ^^""

What's the point of being a beautiful flower but no one care to see?

Just my feelings when I was taking a walk today... The flowers outside people's homes or by the sidewalk were planted nicely, but does anyone really spend time to look at them?

Maybe only me or a few others really stop, look at them and touch them.

Yes, I touched some flowers today. Tempted to pick them and bring them home... but figure it's the best to leave it there so they are alive instead of dead...

I can't dance or I don't have boobs nor butts so I really should just stay the way I am... I'm more alive to be me! (but which is the real me really? I can't yet figure out...)

Just a random late Egyptian love poem:

I shall lie down in my house and pretend illness. Then my neighbours will come by to visit me and my beloved will come with them. She will send the physicians away. For she alone understands my illness.

If provided that the translation is correct (which I trust the historians who encode the Egyptian language...), Egyptians and people back then are no difference from us all in this world today - human nature seems to be unchanged even after thousands of years.

Poems are ageless...

how cool is this :)

Photo and Film 24 Hours

My head feels like it's spinning.

There are these photo editing and film editing tasks in my head all the time!

I do that at work AND at home!

At work, I do editing and editing and editing..

At home, I finally pinch myself so I would do this: to organize my photos which has accumulated since two years ago (burning DVD takes forever... I never like :(

Hard drive, external hard drive, whatever usb, whatever memory card I have... has been always full since two years ago and that alert message on my laptop constantly pops up, so much trouble to free space when I have work and project to do.. !!! this is to the MAX I can stand now. It's been two years, I have no space to work, that low memory or low hard drive space message is haunting me all the time :((

I'm like this. I don't do anything unless it's VERY necessary/Urgent OR, I do everything right away when I'm in the right mood hahhahahha...

So yea.. my more than full time editor *job*. Burn! Burn! Burn all the photos!!! (on DVDs) like.. 5 to 6 more to go?!?!? (plus the copys I owe my friends.. gosh)

Hopefully I'm good to go to finally do my home trip video editing (like I have 5 projects in mind I have always always want to do!). I am into composing video these days :D (Thanks to work..)

Looking forward to upload my trips photos too....! anyway. Back to burrrrnnning!

Giving love to my baby...

So it's been around 4 years since I have my baby rebel

I clean it occasionally, but mostly just do some simple wiping, blowing off dust and stuff.

But I decided I will do a better cleaning tonight:

- The strap got so dirty (with my sweat?!), so I washed it! (Ew, the water turns yellow, much like when I wash my sneakers...)
- The lens got greasy and dusty from using it outdoor with all those harmful sunscreen and bug repellent, so I use water and the best cotton I have to wipe it!
- And hey, I am doing maintenance for the lens my BIL lend me ;) (pat on myself for doing a great job) I love them and I hope I'm making good use of them :D (by using it alot and making it dirty?! haha)

I want to do more research and experimenting suddenly, maybe cos I had just talk to this new friend of mine today about cameras! It must be a call :) It's been a while I feel like into camera, not feeling into it for a while...

Am I turning back into the old self of me? (like I feel like I get slightly more materialistic again.. NO~~ I need my spiritual sense to stay strong... time to do some praying and meditation... I miss it alot I feel stress again with work and so much summer stuffs going on..)

Thank you for God, for everyone, for everything that's I'm having. I feel very content as of today!! I don't know about tomorrow. but I know as long as I keep this gratitude and spirit up, I am already a better person!

Greatest heartache as of 2010 - Missed Mass

:...(

I missed mass tonight... the first time I'm missing Sunday mass in 2010~! I broke my streak :......(

came back from camping and then thought I will take a nap.

Alarm set to 6:35 am

instead of 6:35 pm

Forgive me God, I was feeling devastating when I woke up at 8:38pm when I realized I had slept way too long for a 20mins nap...

Was it because I didn't care about going to church as much as I thought?... or is it because I had too much fun these days I forgot about my commitment..?

Anyway. I am so sad.. but I will take this as a break you gave me and continue to enjoy my Sunday night :D Thank you so much for having me safely back home and giving me this relax night.

The night when Mother Teresa came to visit me

Mother Teresa, perhaps, more appropriately - Blessed Mother Teresa

a very familiar name to me.

I had known her since I was a kid, from church teachings, tv news, to me the most memorable thing of her would be Sammi Cheung's old song "The angel of Calcutta, Mother Teresa". I probably didn't understand the song fully until now. But as a kid and teenager, I definitely love that song... Very ironic that I didn't really know her but I liked the song as a kid, it got me notice MT as a pop song and not a church song!

Anyway.. I don't even care much about Mother Teresa till now, been in the high school of her name - Mother Teresa Catholic High School since forever, but didn't appreciate this Blessed patron till recently.

I'm so into her now~ I borrow the book of hers, but didn't finish... need to reborrow again.

Work has been stressful and demanding, very tired after work, all I did was go home, eat, go on internet, watch world cup or read some news, facebook of course and maybe youtube whatever interests me.

In these stressful work days of mine, can you even believe this - that She, Mother Teresa actually came to "visit" me!!!! Last month about the same time, I was crazy about reading about her and watching her videos on youtube, living aimlessly with nothing much to do. Tonight, I am so tired cos I got so much work, I am so occupy that I have hard time finding time to go to church in weekdays... This ME, tonight, I get to see her relics - her pair of shoes, her rosary, her two adoration decor... - 1st and 2nd class relics that "should have been presented to the Congregation for the Causes of Saints when her case for Beatification was brought forth"!!

This is too much of a amazing grace, for what I ask, I received. I miss church so much these days, and tonight, not only I got to go to an evening mass but I have Mother Teresa "came to visit me", During these two days of viewing, her relics do not present to public in many locations (only three locations in Toronto - two in downtown, one in Scarborough), I get to go to one of the two masses... it's perfect timing and location for me, just right outside my house! It's totally made for me to go! I totally cried.

So this is the mass I went tonight, it's totally the highlight of this week and I got to blog this before I forget my excitement... It's a weeknight mass AND a possibly once in a lifetime first class relics of BMT viewing...

Through her belongings, I get to feel her blessings and reminded of her great works. When I saw the sisters of the Missionary of Charity in their legendary white robe with blue strips, I was really thinking to myself.. I want to join them, I really like helping people by doing hands on work!.. But I can't yet leave me "worldly desires"~!!... maybe one day.. when the call is so strong, I can't say no.. I will service the world with my two hands and one heart... I hope to have a day like that, I'm not ruling this out!!! hahaha..

Happy 25th Anniversary of Missionary of Charity in the Toronto Dioceses. I really appreciate all the charity work done by this international groups of sisters who follow the footstep of Mother Teresa...

Mary, Mother of Jesus, Be a Mother to me now. - Mother Teresa