Post one last little note in 2012

I said a little prayer for myself today...

I think I don't need this and that to be happy, is it wrong to think so?
Why is my 'other self' is telling me you need this and that, then you will be happy?

Anyway, I said a little prayer, for myself, that I can be happy by just being happy.
I'm happy these days, even when there are quite a few things to worry... :)

Anyway, Merry Christmas, it's this time of the year again huh?
Two more work days, and I'm off till 2013!! YAY See you in 2013

(P.S. Sorry blog, I neglected you for so long again, but I know you are happy just cos you are happy hehe...)

New Blog

It's been decided, I'm going to create a art and design related blog. I always come across fabulous looking designs but I never really document any of them. This new blog will be a design blog curated by me and only dictate by my amazing taste..! muhahahhahah~! :D

Documentary: "I am Fishead"

This documentary talks about topics from corporate psychopaths (mostly means emotionally lacking and self-center, usually ambitious, very intelligent and career successful) vs. psychopaths people thought there are (ie. murderers, crazy serial killers) as well as sociopaths (people lacking empathy), wealth driven corporate society (people blindly follow authority and the top of the pyramid), to anti-depressant (happy pills). In general, they investigate the society's obsession to happiness, authority and success in life.

I feel that the documentary jumps around a bit, and it would be alot more interesting to have it more concentrated on corporate psychopaths and the corporate world/consumerism instead of turning into the many ideas... I sort of ended up sidetracking and turning it off to look up more about corporate psychopaths on my own research.

After a while, I decided to continue watching the film since I'm halfway, they then talks about people who take anti-depressant and how it might closely related to be a person who have traits of corporate psychopaths where they are confident individuals, they feel they need to be using the drug to bring them back into the norms that they lack, and they are people who wants feedback and rewards.

It went on to the fact people follow authority, we do what people were told us to do and feel the responsibility to follow. Then jumps onto consumerism and the pursuit of happiness.. and then talks about gut feeling and the ego centric, non-responsive beings that usually don't take action even tho it's right. Then the idea of how our actions and behaviours are affected by each other.

At the end, 'we are all fishead', not just the corporate psychopaths... We are all to be blame and all the problems in the society are the result of these topics.. "No freewill in our world" "We are a herd" and what we can do to change this is to change the social norm, and surround ourselves with the goods, be moral and have principles.

So much to think about, so little to leave behind for me, I feel the documentary went downhill from halfway. The big grand ending was just too general - "people just generally are good and passive, not willing to be a hero, and are mostly silent.." "We need to voice out our good and be good"...

"What would you do?"

I F*&%ed up

Long while since I blog, maybe this has become a pattern that this blog exist for recording the most saddening/happy moments of mine. Hope happy takes up more blogspace..?

Anyway, gosh, the ride has not been smooth, a lot of things.. I realized life is really complicated. It's not easy, nothing is easy at all. Even gaming takes skills, school takes skills, saving coupons takes skills, survival takes skills, cooking eggs takes skills, making everyone happy including myself takes skills. Is it possible to even make everyone happy? I don't know. I just think that it's too easy to make everyone upset, including myself. So easy to ruin everything eh?

Empty-mindedness can very much kills alot of things. --- is what I learn in the past few days. Winter camping kick-assly awesome it was sooo good, but the process of the trip sucks ass big biiiig big time.

Shoot. I screwed up. *cry*

Try harder next time!!! *shout*

Sicko in my head and body

I felt sick again, I think over the past one year, I had felt sick every other month or even more. In various areas: Eye, headache, (delusional) hair loss, nail, nose, bladder, cold, flu, toothache/dirty teeth, strep throat like virus...

I'm such a sicko! :D Need to get well.

Out of bucks but I want

these lens in the future once I got graduate and save up! :D Can't wait :)

My criteria is: wide, low light (fast), great image, for portraits + walk around

These are the lens that I find nice:

Wide-Angle

Canon EF-S 10-22mm f/3.5-4.5 USM - ultra wide (as wide as you can get), reviews shown amazing quality (like L lens), expensive ($800)

Canon EF-S 15-85mm f/3.5-5.6 IS USM - very wide, great image quality (almost the same as 17-55mm and comparable to L-lens in some reviews), expensive ($730), all purpose outdoor/travel/portrait

Canon EF-S 17-55mm f/2.8 IS USM - wide, fast lens, low light, all purpose portrait/indoor/wedding, a little too expensive (at around $1100, maybe 24-70mm 2.8L is a better deal)

Canon EF 16-35mm f/2.8L II USM - wide, EF L-lens, super, great quality, so pricy ($1700)

Standard Zoom

Canon EF 24-70mm f/2.8L USM - fast lens, versatile range, great image quality, great build, L-lens, all purpose low light/wedding/travel lens, so expensive (around $1350)

Prime

Canon EF 28mm f/1.8 USM - great range (shorter than 50mm), great quality, quiet, low light, reasonably priced ($500)

Canon EF 50mm f1.4 USM - prime lens, small/compact, sharp, super fast/low light, amazing portraits, great quality and built, not cheap compare to 50mm 1.8 ($370)

Canon EF 85mm f/1.8 USM - prime lens, small, sharp, great built (glass), amazing portraits, reasonably priced ($400)

Macro

Canon EF 100mm f/2.8 Macro USM - True Macro, great image quality, EF lens, great nature/portrait, reasonably priced ($560)

Canon EF 100mm f/2.8L Macro IS USM - Same as above, but L-lens with Image Stabilizer and heavier nicer built, priced almost double (at about $1000)

Tele-Zoom

Canon EF 70-200mm f/2.8L II IS USM - L-lens, amazing quality, great for landscape/wildlife/ sports, very expensive ($2370)

Opening my good old macbook pro

Okay. So I had finally decided to try to open up my laptop to clean and also attempt to fix a few ugly dents.

Wish me the good patience and let me be very careful...!

I think I will look for a harddrive to install meanwhile too (if I succeed in opening it and close it :P)... Let's see...

For those of you who wants to try this with me, here's the guides I'm going to follow:

http://macbookprosurgery.blogspot.com/2007/06/opening-up-your-macbook-pro.html

http://www.flickr.com/photos/jasonidzerda/sets/72157622047423232/